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Hey from Arizona!

Hey from hot Arizona everyone!

I've been here (AZ) for 7 days! I've been having a blast hanging with my best friend and her family. I also got to meet my sister's boyfriend; I love him already.

We haven't been doing too much...there's not very much to do in the middle of nowhere. We've visited a few old towns, but that's about it.

Yesterday my family and I hiked up a mountain. I was sooo high up I was getting dizzy, and on top of that, I have a huge fear of heights. *shiver*

After that we all went to In-And-Out. I wouild have enjoyed it more if there weren't nickle sized beetles flying around...I really don't like bugs...and when can fly around...that makes it worse.

Well, I have to go. I just got an idea for my book and I'd hate to forget it. I'll post again soon!

The Zoo!

Hey, everyone!
It's only been a few days since my last post but much has happened. My cousins have come over and life is crazy. Waiting to go on that road trip now...but hey, my cousin is getting married this Sat. Yay! Bless them him in his new journey.

So yeah, I went to the zoo today. Pretty fun, I haven't been to the zoo in four to five years so it was exciting. I got to see clouded leopards, owls and giant bird eating spiders! But nothing beats the awesome flamingo plushie I bought my older sister and the cute little turtles there.

I love the zoo, it's a chance to see a few of the millions of creatures God put on this earth. He really has an eye for beauty and a sense of humor(only because some of those animals weren't looking too pretty).

Not only did I have a good time, but I get to go again in Arizona. Twice in one month is a treat! Thank Jesus for zoo memberships.

Summer is HERE!!!

SUMMER IS HERE!

This summer isn't too packed this year. My cousins and a few friends are staying at my house for over a week. (good-bye bedroom) But I'm excited to have them come. Then right after they leave, we will be leaving on a road trip down to Arizona to see a friend's and my sister's boyfriend's graduation for advanced training. I'm excited for that.

Then my sister's boyfriend will be coming up with us in Washington for a few days and then he will fly down to NC with my sister so she can meet his family.

For this summer I'm taking a break for a much loved forum to focus on my writing and art. I'll update this blog every now and then, but I want to say out there to all of you, "Have a great summer!"

I'm Not Helpless!!! :D

Like I said...I'm not helpless! I was able to create a google site, in which I'll be posting parts of my book. By clicking this link you can visit the home for The Outsiders: A Journey Begins. I'll try to update weekly, but since there is school to be done I may not have very much time. We'll see how everything goes until summer. Then I'm going to write, Write, WRITE!

Looking on the Past.

Looking on the past, and I realized I was kinda cute a a kid.

(Sorry, I wasn't able to scan these pictures so I re-took them iwht the camera give this photo a slanted apperence.) I think I had just eaten a brownie or something.

Me with lipstick all over my face.

And then my Pooh Bear stuffed animal and I. (I still have it to)

YAY FOR MEMORIES!

My Goals!

This year for 2009 I had three goals, you can read about them below.

But one of my goals this year was to get the first draft of my book done. This, I am happy to say, is going along nicely. I haven't had too many writer's blocks and the words just keep flowing out of me like a river into the ocean, and when I can't write and I don't have any ideas, I just plain out 'junk write'. I just write down whatever comes to mind at that very moment...even if I'm thinking about cheese, I'll write about cheese. Simple as that. Here's one of my 'junk writings'.

Enjoy, and I ask you not to copy and take my writing as your own. It's illegal and wrong. Everything in italics is mine! DO NOT COPY IT PLEASE!

Thank you!

"A young girl’s fingers graced the keyboard of her laptop. She sat cross-legged, relaxed in a way, on her bed covered with several blankets that would remind one of a rainbow. The room was dark for the blinds blocked out any remaining light from the retiring sun. Everywhere, scattered on the grey, shaggy carpet, where books among all different kinds; anywhere from fantasy to history, and even a journal or two.

The girl alone was fascinating to look at. Her posture did not scream ‘I’m a teenager!’ although she was. She held her head high, and kept her back straight. The light from the computer screen, glinted off her glasses and shone on her tightly pulled back bun. She gazed into the screen as if she were willing it to do something with the power of her mind.

She closed her eyes and her fingers twitched with unknown anticipation. Somewhere from outside a dog barked, and sirens echoed loudly through her walls, but the girl, as though she were in a trance, paid no mind to the racket.

A minute passed and everything soon became as still as death. The sun had taken its last breath and the storm-dark clouds shadowed the sky. Darkness engulfed everything, everything but the girl. Her skin glowed as though she were the moon in a midnight sky.

Her eyes flashed open, her eyes shining like stars. Her fingers flew into action and the silence was broken with the steady tap of keys. The wind howled from outside, and the rain drummed on the roof of her house. Thunder cracked and the sky lit up with a bolt of lightning, but the girl did not stop. When one would consider the storm noise, the girl found melody and rhythm that kept pace with her flying fingers.

Until the storm’s end her fingers would never stop, never tire. Her heart, her mind, and all of her soul were transformed into words; words that would last longer than herself. Her words would change lives and generations to come, and when the storm dies, she will forever rest until the next one is the horizon."

An Update

Hey I have an update on my life!

I just passed the 10,000 word mark in one of my stories and the 20,000 word mark in another. That's all really. Still waiting for that special boy to come into my life. :3

The above picture is from my 15th birthday.

Oh! And I also get my braces off in about three months. YAY!

You Are Worth Something

Currently I'm working on a huge 9th grade project on depression. I find it very hard for me to do this because for five years I suffered from it. How did I come out of it? Jesus Christ told me I was worth more than I know. Here is my testimony.

"You are worth more than you know."

Depression (n.): a strong mood involving sadness, discouragement, despair, or hopelessness that lasts for weeks, months, or even longer; can also create thoughts of death or suicide.

This is how most people sum up depression. I can understand that, but I believe it is something way deeper, far more spiritual.

Before I came to truly know Christ and accept him as my savior, I was greatly depressed. At the time I was going to church, singing the worship songs, praying before meals and at bedtime. I had accepted Jesus into my heart, or so I thought.

With each passing day I struggled with depression, and it got so bad that one day I had suicidal thoughts. As the weeks past these thoughts of suicide grew stronger and stronger. Satan filled my head with lies that tore me up inside by telling me I wasn’t worth anything to anyone or worth being alive. I thought I could end my pain on earth by taking my own life.

So one Friday, after I had been teased and bullied at school, I came home and tried to commit suicide. I was so close to committing suicide that I had the knife point to my chest. I was nine years old and about to end my life, and I most likely, in all truth, would have gone to Hell.

As I was about to put the knife through my heart my hand stopped in mid-air, as thought someone had a hold of my wrist. I heard a whisper in my ear that told me, “You are worth more than you know.” Overcome by the words spoken to me I put the knife away and I avoided the kitchen for weeks.

Even after that I was still depressed. I still suffered from depression for a number of years afterwards, but I never forgot the words spoken to me, “You are worth more than you know.” I fully accepted Christ as my savior when I was thirteen years old. I now live depression free, and the lies that were spoken to me, I can hear them no more.

So for those out there, who are feeling like they are worth nothing, just know that God loves you, and that you are worth more to Him than you know.

This is why I'm living each day for Jesus Christ. Now I know I'm never alone in this world, and that I am "worth more than you know"

Happy New Year!

Yes I know I'm a bit late on the whole New Year thing...forgive me.
For this year I plan do strive for several things. Some are going to take longer than others, but I don't really care.

Ok this year I plan to:
1. Learn to cry. I have a hard time crying. Most likely because I told myself to suck it up and deal with it. No more, that is a thing of the past and now I'm going to cry at everything happy and sad...well not not everything.
2. Start a girls bible study group. It's something that I have always planned to do since I'm not getting too much out of church or bible study. I want to dig deep with other girls my age and hopefully we can all grow deeper in our walk with the Lord. It would also be nice to make some new friends and have support and be support for others.
3. Stop procrastinating and finish the first draft of my book. I put the 'pro' in procrastinate. I need to stop dreaming and start writing. I plan to write one chapter every two weeks. I have already written three chapters of my book and I have twenty-eight more to go. I would also like to write out the storyline for my second book in the triology that I'm writing.

So, now I say good-bye 2008 and hello 2009!
God bless everyone!